Sometimes when you feel as though.
you can only be a friend to him and nothing more or less
but one day you think that it could change
and maybe the two of you could be more then friends
but then he acts like nothing happened
and doesnt realize how
he just set you up to get hurt
like he doesnt really care
or he just wanted to hurt you
he can be so confusing sometimes
that you dont even know what to think
but in the back of your mind you know that he will always love her
and never love you
you think to yourself
why am i so stupid to realize that i keep falling for it over and over
he makes you feel as though your not good enough for him
he made you feel as though you could always be yourself, yet you would make fun of eachothers flaws and talk about the stupidest and randomest things.
But luckly a very good friend reminded me
that he is the stupid one
because he doesnt realize what he has lost
but then you think of him, more and more each day
and try to figure out where you went wrong
and what you could of done to change things
but maybe you were just kidding yourself
and nothing was ever going to change
i dont know anymore :S
Now I think that maybe being more then friends is not what we are suppose to be.
Maybe we are just suppose to be friends becuase being anything more would ruin things.As I look at the situation I fell in love more with our friendship then him. To me it is more important to maintain the friendship then lose him completly and act as though we never knew each other.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
L I F E.
Thoughts.....
Life
Life everyone questions and the biggest question they have is what the purpose for my life is?
We will always try and figure that out, but the only way to figure it out is by living your life the way you believe you were created to live it. By realizing how without your life, how everyone’s life would be different. That your life will always mean something to another person, and that there cherish it more then you will.
Every life has a purpose, has a value and a reason.
There are times when people don’t realize that and change their life plan for the worse. Those people who always turn for the worse, always have something to give and is still a human being just looking for the people who care enough for them, to lead them into a better and more fulfilling life that every human is deserved to have and experience.
It’s always full of surprises, changes and excitement. It can never be predicted not one minute or second. Because it’s true your life can truly change in a matter of second or a blink of an eye. There may be certain situations you are not proud of and scared to admit, but through every experience there is a reason, and you may never know the reason, there is a lesson and if you think about the lesson is there to help you improve your life and lead into the right direction. Life it’s something we all have a chance to live to the fullest. To take every opportunity as it passes us by, to be the best we can be a d live the way with want. Every decision does affect every aspect of your life, at first it may seem a negative one, but if you give it time the positive change will shines through.
I personally believe to never ever take your life for granted, no matter the situation you are put into to get out of, life is there, and sooner or later it can be taken away from you when you least expect it. The most important thing that everyone must remind themselves that they have the control of their lives, and that no one else does. All they are is guideline to push into the right direction, but at the end of the day it’s all based on what will make you happy and how you want your life to be.
Life is definitely a roller coaster ride, which can have its ups, downs, lows high and even the occasional loopty loop. But every single one of those moves are just a part of life we all made to experience. The downs make all the ups so much better and more appreciated.
Through every down, I am grateful for the next up because the downs give me the strength to keep on living my life, and realize that the down was there to make me stronger and to improve my life. There are some lessons that we will learn easily and others the hard way. As for me I seem to learn more when I learn the hard way because it has a greater impact on how I make my decisions later in life.
Life will always be full of decisions but it’s the decisions we make, will make our lives more interesting and unpredictable. No one will ever know what the next corner or bump with bring.
With many decisions the answer will always be obviously with a simple yes or no. But the ones that need much more time, debating and analyzing with always have the greater impact. When we are faced with those kinds of decisions, they provide a reality on what it most important in our life and what are main priorities have to be.
Within every life the greatest thing that will effect it, are the people we choose to be a part of it and the ones who don’t even associate with. Every person in our lives is there for a reason. Throughout our life people do come and the do leave, But here are a certain few who prove that they will be there till end. Maybe they were there in the beginning and you two lost each other for an awhile, but there will always be a special place in your life and heart for that person because now that they are back in it, you couldn’t believe how you lost this person for years. At certain times even forgot who they were.
LIFE for me will always be a mystery for me to solve, but in the mean time I am going to have in life trying to solve this mystery.
Everyday there is always something we have to figure out, that challenges your mind and the person you are. Every day is a surprise that why it’s known as the present, living every minute will only ensure that we are enjoying our lives the best we can.
Though it my life there have many ups and downs. Through all of the downs have come many ups and keep to continue. I am achieving many of the goals I wish it accomplish and doing the things love to do. Such as going to school, cheerleading and working, No matter what environment I am working I am surrounded by many people, with many backgrounds of knowledge and its understanding to hear and listen to their stories.
Everyone’s life is both similar and different.
Lately I have fell as I have been so trapped in everything going on with my life. It’s always go, go, and go and I never get any more time to do the things I love.
I look back at my life for a quick second, shocked by how much of it has passed and how fast this year has gone by. All of the changes and obstacles I have been through. Looking at back on everything just makes reality hit even harder. The scariest part is next year is my graduating year then university. I’m so scared because I feel as if I have already let myself down along with my family. Nothing I ever do now, they are proud of and at certain times I feel they are ashamed to have me as a daughter. My life is not the same as it used to be, and I feel I have changed for the worse. I’m trying so hard to be this person my parents want me to be, but really im not. At times I feel so lost that I don’t know where I belong anymore. Many of my friends seem distant and I miss them all the time.
Life
Life everyone questions and the biggest question they have is what the purpose for my life is?
We will always try and figure that out, but the only way to figure it out is by living your life the way you believe you were created to live it. By realizing how without your life, how everyone’s life would be different. That your life will always mean something to another person, and that there cherish it more then you will.
Every life has a purpose, has a value and a reason.
There are times when people don’t realize that and change their life plan for the worse. Those people who always turn for the worse, always have something to give and is still a human being just looking for the people who care enough for them, to lead them into a better and more fulfilling life that every human is deserved to have and experience.
It’s always full of surprises, changes and excitement. It can never be predicted not one minute or second. Because it’s true your life can truly change in a matter of second or a blink of an eye. There may be certain situations you are not proud of and scared to admit, but through every experience there is a reason, and you may never know the reason, there is a lesson and if you think about the lesson is there to help you improve your life and lead into the right direction. Life it’s something we all have a chance to live to the fullest. To take every opportunity as it passes us by, to be the best we can be a d live the way with want. Every decision does affect every aspect of your life, at first it may seem a negative one, but if you give it time the positive change will shines through.
I personally believe to never ever take your life for granted, no matter the situation you are put into to get out of, life is there, and sooner or later it can be taken away from you when you least expect it. The most important thing that everyone must remind themselves that they have the control of their lives, and that no one else does. All they are is guideline to push into the right direction, but at the end of the day it’s all based on what will make you happy and how you want your life to be.
Life is definitely a roller coaster ride, which can have its ups, downs, lows high and even the occasional loopty loop. But every single one of those moves are just a part of life we all made to experience. The downs make all the ups so much better and more appreciated.
Through every down, I am grateful for the next up because the downs give me the strength to keep on living my life, and realize that the down was there to make me stronger and to improve my life. There are some lessons that we will learn easily and others the hard way. As for me I seem to learn more when I learn the hard way because it has a greater impact on how I make my decisions later in life.
Life will always be full of decisions but it’s the decisions we make, will make our lives more interesting and unpredictable. No one will ever know what the next corner or bump with bring.
With many decisions the answer will always be obviously with a simple yes or no. But the ones that need much more time, debating and analyzing with always have the greater impact. When we are faced with those kinds of decisions, they provide a reality on what it most important in our life and what are main priorities have to be.
Within every life the greatest thing that will effect it, are the people we choose to be a part of it and the ones who don’t even associate with. Every person in our lives is there for a reason. Throughout our life people do come and the do leave, But here are a certain few who prove that they will be there till end. Maybe they were there in the beginning and you two lost each other for an awhile, but there will always be a special place in your life and heart for that person because now that they are back in it, you couldn’t believe how you lost this person for years. At certain times even forgot who they were.
LIFE for me will always be a mystery for me to solve, but in the mean time I am going to have in life trying to solve this mystery.
Everyday there is always something we have to figure out, that challenges your mind and the person you are. Every day is a surprise that why it’s known as the present, living every minute will only ensure that we are enjoying our lives the best we can.
Though it my life there have many ups and downs. Through all of the downs have come many ups and keep to continue. I am achieving many of the goals I wish it accomplish and doing the things love to do. Such as going to school, cheerleading and working, No matter what environment I am working I am surrounded by many people, with many backgrounds of knowledge and its understanding to hear and listen to their stories.
Everyone’s life is both similar and different.
Lately I have fell as I have been so trapped in everything going on with my life. It’s always go, go, and go and I never get any more time to do the things I love.
I look back at my life for a quick second, shocked by how much of it has passed and how fast this year has gone by. All of the changes and obstacles I have been through. Looking at back on everything just makes reality hit even harder. The scariest part is next year is my graduating year then university. I’m so scared because I feel as if I have already let myself down along with my family. Nothing I ever do now, they are proud of and at certain times I feel they are ashamed to have me as a daughter. My life is not the same as it used to be, and I feel I have changed for the worse. I’m trying so hard to be this person my parents want me to be, but really im not. At times I feel so lost that I don’t know where I belong anymore. Many of my friends seem distant and I miss them all the time.
A Magical Weekend
A truly unforgettable weekend, in which I know in my heart I will never forget. A weekend ful of laughs, tears, wardrobe malfunctions and amazing people. It all started off Friday after work. It was my cousin's birthday and I attended her birthday party. I walk into the house and I wonder who all of these people are and the amount of people in which I had knew were very few. At the beggining I felt a little out of place, but as the evening went out , I felt more and more part of group. I had met alot of amazing and interesting people. All of which I found were very friendly, welcoming and loved to laugh and a great sense of humour. My cheeks at one point hurt from all of the smiling and laughing. I was really happy to have decided to the attend party becuase I truly enjoyed myself and very happy I got to meet all of these people. The next day, Saturday was the Coronation Night for the new Miss. FCAN queen an event in which I have loved attending since I was in grade 9 and as well have been perfoming at since grade 9. It's a night to get all dressed up, go to fancy place and feel grown up. But also have fun with your friends. The evening started off with an opening speech, followed by a prayer and dinner. The dinner was delicious and very filling. Then came my dance performance , I must admit I was nervous , but also confident because I trusted my partner and if we messed up I knew we could both fix it. After wards came the crowning of the new queen and her speech. Followed by the rest of the night to be dancing. But ofcourse right when the dancing start my dress, decides to not co-operate and the zipper breaks. Wow I know perfect. So I spot my cousin and tell the situation, he drives me home to get a new dress. Ofcourse i forgot at that moment it was earth hour at my house, I sturggle to find a new one in the drak and change. Wow that was quite the experience. So I return to the party with a new dress and ready to start dancing the night away with all of my friends. We all taked, shared stories, took pictures, laughed , danced and best of all created memories together :) Coronation 2010 a night to remember. I can't wait for next year !
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